2009-11-19 11:39 p.m. (-3HRS for Sg time!)

ONE LAST ONE.

Its just 20mins before i turn 21, and as per every single year, there's this one special entry that pretends to think about the past year and 'reflect'.

Many things have happened in the past year, many changes good and bad. I wont say that i liked all of them, or that i hated all that changed. But the awful thing is that, while i have gradually accepted that change will always be happening, i will never like it when my life change in any way.

When i was wayyyy younger, i always thought that by the time i turned 21, i would be perfect. I would know what to do, think, say at the appropriate place, appropriate time. But i guess not, since my personality and character are cracked in about a million places. But i would like to think that at least, i am growing in a generally positive direction, and not end up being useless, or even worse, a detriment to the family/society.

The share-able resolutions: To not hold on to things stubbornly. ie, accept changes, and learn to let go.

Also, be positive. Not in the extreme sense, but always try to look from the positive/optimistic p.o.v and be happy. Its been a long time since i was that pessimistic grouch, and im thankful that it hasnt come back and stayed. I think Tasmania really did help to purge that devil out of me.

Finally, study hard. Not because i have to, but because i chose this path in life, so i have to excel in it. And anyone who sees me not doing so has the right to nag at me till i do it.

And with that, i think i shall go and have a shower and start my 21st living year clean.

p/s: entries for the past week will be up soon!!!

p/p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

reminisce - future